I wanna dance…

the dance that set me free

To jump and flee with glee

and transcend what I see

There I leap and prance

free to choose my stance

I mime, jive and whiz

drenched in the boundless bliss

I wanna dance…

the dance that limn the free will

Causality coops my realm still


Color me autumn


Winter is right at my doors! Yet, my heart sings red and yellow and oblige to this unfathomable call of fall **hmmm***  may be it’s just the impulse to resonate my feeds, overrun with maple leaves and pumpkin patches; may be my fancy for peaches or lust for tawny branches! Perhaps my bubbling urge to praise the cession of the trees, that toss their blushing leaves, to wash our way with hue.

Could just be a whim..


Must be a hunch! to let fall our fallacies…
to shed off the duff and pep up, anew as dew!
to efface the haze and spring ablaze !

Unravelling the casteism, as one of its victims

We are marching towards peak of our civilization, adorned with multifarious technologies, more polished, refined, comprising of well-bred ladies and gentleman, Yet! we continue to encounter discriminations, on various grounds. Well, Casteism is the most conspicuous and contentious one of it – you would need no further explanations if you are from any rural parts of India, irrespective of your religion! At least one in ten of the population is a potential victim, in one way or the other, at-least at some point in their life time. You could see things like ****Land disputes turns into caste violence*** Teen paraded naked for affair with a girl from different caste**** girl allegedly assaulted, tonsured for marrying out of caste***Dalits attacked for hoisting national flag***, frequenting the headlines. In-fact these are pretty much run of the mill affairs that are just brushed aside while there are many other subtler non vocal ones as well.

It all roots back to our ancient castesim (comprising of 4 varnas – Brahmnas , Kshatriyas , Vaishyaas and Sudraas). My understanding of its origin is not of mere stratification but more inclining towards social balance. To form a whole society, we need people to split up the responsibilities equally, people took various métiers based on their capabilities, got labelled accordingly, thereafter trying to preserve the genes over generations under the veil of karma, to maintain the balance. Whatsoever, we all know this balance could not last long. Two things – One is that, genetics is just one of the influencing factor and that it could very much flip, alter and evolve. The other is that our society has witnessed a sea change since then, that now our choice of occupation is quite subjective and rely on various ingredients like educational opportunities, job opportunities, competition, location and environmental factors, monetary aspects, so on so forth – the point is, now the choice is very much controlled by these societal factors, in an unformulated way of-course, than a free man’s desire, aptitude or heritage.

One fact clear! Castesim is stereotyped, hackneyed, dull and nothing more than a cliche now, devoid any real worth to the society. Yet, you are reading this, implies despite of no value or efficacy, there are and continuing to be several victims of it, including me! It still prevails, continues to defy and resist to evolve with the changing technologies. It’s not just the four varnas anymore. Not only the castesim has overgrown and has so many branches now, cloaked under various names, its roots has perpetuated deeply, not just into materialistic aspects like politics, business, blah blah blah – into more deeper place, making it quite difficult to deracinate – Yes! into our very own minds!. Someone at some point of time, has recorded this information somewhere deep. In my case, I belong to the brahmin clan and the recording sounds like *** ‘I am intellectual, I am highest of all the class, I am selfish and ridiculous!’****. We have been hearing this over and over, I could very much sense that it has altered the consciousness to a considerable extent, influencing my desires and choices, even defining my character at times, slowly feeding all over me. It is this very recording that keeps people from having an open mind, skeptic, in ignorance!

Recently I read a blog on humanistic psychology talking of Abraham Maslow’s theory of learning, proposing that human motivation is based on a hierarchy of needs. Surprise!, I could very much correlate his pyramid to the four varnas – from the basic physiological needs of survival to the path of self actualization. ***Stratifying the society based on our needs, so that we could always actualize them, all of them, reserving people with appropriate vocation to deliver the job **** that’s what our ancestors had done. Irony is that the purpose has faded away, leaving us with nothing more than mere discrimination. With ages of conditioning, many of us have either developed intolerance to change or just too lazy to pull the strings, while some do willfully enjoy the dominance, take leverage and stamp over the weaker. Now the situation has to started to show its flip side as we have angered the meek for so long, nevertheless the caste system by itself is unswerving. Whoever protest, they do under the same tag line. For some fatuous reason they still want to hold on to it.


I was looking at the Abraham Maslow’s pyramid, deeper this time, occurred that it’s not just the hierarchy of needs, a clear indication of evolution as well, so as the varnas. . As I was looking, unconsciously my mind was trying to fit me in there, rating me. My brahmin recording said,*** Yay! you are on the top of the pyramid and my logical mind rejected laughing, see you still spend most of your time, making your living***. Hmmm…..***bit my lip*** why blame someone else?.  It was then I remembered something – We have seen people who have held self esteem way above their lives, we have seen people who have reached heights in the path of self actualization even before realizing their basic needs – I would say these are typical epitomes of evolution and holism.

What we miss is that we have always been looking at evolution in a sequential way and continue to  – one of the prime reasons behind the tendency to develop superiority – inferiority traits. We are so fundamentalistic to still hold karma as fate and not discern that it’s nothing but causality. We have evolved a lot and have complicated ourselves a lot, we will not fit just like that in these classifications, not anymore! We are more of a whole and compiled version, that we cannot break and restrict ourselves down to one of these sections/classes. With our given society, high time for us to wake up, renounce our preconceived notions, stop being fundamentalists, acclimate ourselves to play the role of all varnas , be agile!

The Choice and Destiny


There he is! at the crux…

Taking pride at his freedom of choice

Poor fella, he does not discern his courses are pent

He knows not of ones beyond his purview

There he is! on the fence…

Contemplating his pick

Left to mull over, which door to open after the next

There he is! between the devil and the deep blue sea..

Hoping to get to the Zion

He presumes his doom is the blend of his path

He sees not it’s a pit, a rabbit hole, offering no way back.

There he is! over the moon…

Revering his leeway, glad to take the onus

The choice is his!

The Cliché

Let’s start with a quote –  ‘Opposite attracts’, seems very much self-evident in terms of magnetism, to the fact that a north pole of a magnet attracts a south pole. However, we use this popular saying in-numerous times in various contexts – It’s all about our thinking pattern –  our human mind always tries to connect the dots, trace and form a link between our current  and past experiences/memories, importantly in accord with our desires!  For instance, when people fall in love with a person who is way different from them, you know what people say, don’t you?:-), “Not a surprise, you know, the opposite attracts!, I know you both will be great together..blah…blah…blah..!”. But does it really hold good, every time? To me, a relationship is bringing in two different entities, unique, destined to unify for a purpose, eventually forced to accept and adjust each other. To make things work, a couple should always compliment each other, grow from each other, still be compatible and adjustable, to form a whole healthy relationship – what’s there with opposite attracts?

Now back to magnetism – Opposite attracts?  really ? ? I do agree, a south pole attracts a north pole, but wait! that’s only when you are looking at the poles!

Let’s step out a little and look again, at both the magnets as a whole. Okay… what we see ? – Yes! we could see that –  a magnet that is positioned in N-S direction attracts another magnet that is positioned in the N-S direction, in the same fashion!  Why we never bothered to look at it this way? Think!

It’s up to us to look at the poles or whole magnet, up to us to look at the bigger picture. Unfortunately life is not as simple as it, where to determine whether we are looking at the poles or the whole magnet itself  is a challenge. We perceive based on what we see at that point of time and act, deemed to face the repercussions later , be it good or bad. This is not about scenarios where one knowingly  commits a crime or an act that is universally identified as so. This is all about people who acts and thinks, they are doing the right thing, but get into trouble, despite their act seems righteous. For instance, let’s take a socialist trying to act against a social crime. Ofcourse that’s a virtuous act, yet we have enough history with us, on the mishaps and hiccups faced by the socialists. According to the so called Karmic law, good begets good! What’s with all these commotion?, something to seriously look at! to think what we miss.

We see things, as what appears as good and bad to us, we don’t break our conditioning to step out and see. As with the magnet, we are stuck to the poles! We are conditioned to classify things as good and evil , not as action and reaction. We fail to discern the happenings as cause and effect, fail to observe the universe goes by that law, never taking sides.  The socialist had hell because he failed to foresee and analyze the possible threads and diligently develop a strategy, efficient enough to defend himself, left alone curing the society. I wanna cite our epic Mahabharata, where the Pandavas would have lost, despite being  virtuous , if they didn’t have the brilliant strategist –  Krishna on their side. When I write this I could sense my heart thumping, saying NO!!! Truth always Triumps !!!, Krishna being with them or not, I started wondering if that’s a cliché too.. Then I realized , there is no truth when there is ignorance. Krishna was the tool to clear the ignorance, to discover the truth, as Ignorance is not an excuse, when we take such huge responsibilities, so said Dan Brown – ‘Ignorance is a crime at times of social crises’.!

P.S – I would leave it to you to rephrase the cliché.


Some say ‘know thyself’, some say ‘annihilate the I factor’. Some say ‘just live your life’, some talk of abnegation. We get advices for setting  and realizing our materialistic goals, while the so- called wise say ‘seek thy spiritual self’. Knowledge is wealth or freedom from the known?  Why we are always at the crossroads, we know not where it ends and whichever we pick, why there is always miles to go? Why we cry at both the movies and in reality? What is that we are covering us with, why that we always run from the truth?  Or worse..there is no truth at all!


The paradisiac nature has blessed us with all wondrous beauties –  the sun-kissed clouds, the breath-taking view of mountains and the sun rising slowly above them, vibrant rivers and the scenic beauty of its confluence with the sea, serenity of the lakes, wind whispering to the trees and birds chirping around them, lush greeneries , ethereal blossoms and it’s heavenly fragrance, so enchanting, spectacular, picture-perfect, sometimes we even get the feel, the whole world is made for us, all for us, just for us! Then, suddenly, all upside down, it just takes a moment…all gone with an earth quake or a Tsunami. What seemed motherly and altruistic, all of a sudden seems self -serving, inconsiderate, uncaring, disastrous!. One may say it’s the repercussions we deemed to face for disturbing her balance, be it! still, nature doesn’t mind killing us to maintain her balance? We do see the same behavior among us, among all living beings, don’t we? a primal instinct to fortify thyself, we have seen even the most caring and tolerant people, acting otherwise at times of crises. Does that depict inheritance ? Nature’s paradigm? We always think nature as transcendent, but then did we discern nature is also immanent? We realize not, we are an embodiment of nature as well . This is important, this very realization , as it ought to  bring  a sense of responsibility to maintain the balance and harmony, not just with the outer world , within us as well, thus bringing in the much -wanted peace!

Different strokes for different folks

I recently moved in to this young city, Gurgoan, well-known for its night life. Having been brought up bit orthodox, I couldn’t be very much responsive to the sudden drift in life style. Many a things, right from the way of dressing, seemed contradictory from what I had been taught morally right, all along. People here seem a bit of  pleasure – seeking types, drawing pleasure from every single moment, truly believing they live their life to the core. It’s not just that their way of life is different, it’s the purpose of life. I would say it’s almost a paradigm shift for me, transitioning from an altruistic environment to various degrees of hedonism. I was trying to contemplate so much on this lately, even tried to pick up a talk with a couple of folks over my tea, to perceive their views. Guess what? It lead me to most basic right-wrong  paradox.

‘What is the right thing’ is a big question indeed, always subjective, always transient, always unsettled, more often confused with the social conformity. Many a times we are forced, sometimes even conditioned to align to the societal views, irrespective of what ever our conscience says. Moreover, it’s not just the context of the act..it’s is also very much influenced by other Rs –  ‘the Right time’, ‘the Right quantity’, the Right place’, etc..

Everyone has the freewill, to make their own choice, shape their own destiny, just that we have to bear in mind, we do have to endure all the consequences of the decisions we make. Decisions, decisions  – we make it everyday – big or small – I would say, better, when we base it on an educated guess of the desirable-resultant-repercussions, rather than the original act itself. Well you could still ask, does desirable make it right ? I would say –  yes, no :-), may it could be the right choice if it’s desirable for everyone, not just me.

Guess this painting would not make me indulgent 😉  to our friend next door for his birthday – Cheers!